I was a part of the costume crew! The fun times we had with our seniors, Safwan, Az-ree and Yul, were wonderful! Due to this as well, I got to be with a lot of the kids! (and the teachers!) and even got to meet Feez Madea, one of the Bruneian singers that I truly like.

Still very proud to wear these support bracelets: "I support SMARTER Brunei".

Hafiz, the most adorable kid ever, in my biased opinion! When that picture was taken (it was the evening of our full rehearsal), Hafiz was one of his happier moods, hence the reason why he's even in the picture with me. He's just one of those kids that makes you go 'aww' at every thing that he does and he has such an adorable smile!

Rayyand, Exa, Teacher Bon, Hafiz and I! This was taken during the night of the play - it was an hour before the play started. Hafiz hated being held and was about to run away when he was caught by Teacher Bon!

Aiman! The little boy I was hanging around with! A few of the favourite things that he loved saying were "Hi teacher, what's your name?", "Kick Buttowski!" "Teacher, can we please...." He is the sweetest little kid you will ever see. He loves being given piggy backs and when you ask him for a kiss and a hug, he would always give it to you. I know, I've asked.

The costume crew with the Director and the staffs of SMARTER.

A few members of the Helping Hand crew.

People would often say that a picture is worth a thousand words, and well, it is definitely true. The memories that I have made with these people will never be forgotten and instead, will be cherished forever. Being a part of the SMARTER family, even for just a few days, was a memorable moment (and so far, it's the highlight of my year!).

Let the chase begin. ∞

When I first heard and saw the boys' comeback music video, I was so excited and honestly, I could not contain my joy! What made me even more happy was the fact that they were going to release the album in May - my month! After the comeback video came out, I began counting down the days. It was agonizing yet thrilling at the same time.

When I first saw the teaser for '추격자 (The Chaser)', I really could not contain my emotions! The short teaser seemed to say a lot and I began to ponder what they were trying to convey with the short teaser. It had me sitting at the edge of my seat, anticipating the album! When the preview for all of the songs came out, I was in awe. The songs (although they were previews!) sounded simply amazing and I think I shed a few tears. You can hear the transformation in the songs, especially the progress of each and everyone of the boys' vocals - they are wonderfully improving!

From the first track to the last track in the album, all of the songs were really good, hands down and I'm not being biased either. I was a lover of music before I am an Inspirit. I was a little wary at first, in wanting to listen to the album but I braved myself to listen to it and I regret nothing. The songs had a more mature sound to it and the emotions that were given moved me deeply.  As an international inspirit, one that has little knowledge on the vast Korean words, just by listening to the songs (the tunes and melodies in particular), I could already feel shivers going down my spine. I would like to think this album as another bridge that draws Inspirits closer to the boys. Their unconditional love for Inspirits all packed into seven songs.

INFINITIZE, in short, has songs that I could listen to over and over again, without any hesitation. Hopefully, with this album, a lot more people will get to know a group - a family - named 'Infinite'.

Infinitely yours,
an international Inspirit.

Don't remind me.

Time definitely fly by quickly, especially when you are busy and trying to race time. I have finally got the time to update this blog. It has been playing around in my mind but whenever I have the need to update it, it is usually when I am about to go to sleep.

A lot of thing has happened since the last time I updated the blog. I am finally done with my personal statement, despite only doing it in one day and procrastinated a lot by watching Narnia. Now I am hoping everything will come through. It is really nerve-wrecking - I have yet to fully complete my UCAS form (currently, I am stuck on the reference part!) and the student profile form (which is needed for the reference part!). So on Monday, I will be going back to school and getting everything done and over with on that day with Miss Linda.

My volunteer work with SMARTER finally started yesterday. Though not all of the cast came, it was pretty interesting and somewhat of an eye-opener to see autistic children thriving hard. I was placed with Jeah, Miles, Ummi, Eyah and Nabz in the costume team but due to the fact that they still have no costumes yet, we became part of the stage crew yesterday. It was definitely a wonderful thing to be a part of.

Bunang's wedding is tomorrow and I have yet to take my clothes from the tailor's! Gonna be taking it tomorrow morning. Hoping for tomorrow to be a wonderful day!

Life.

Life, itself, is an obstacle that we constantly face each living day. With every second that passes, one minor thing can change our lives for the greater (or for the worse). After hours of locking myself in my room, I have come to realize that making decisions and choosing the one where you think is right is always the hardest. Not only that, choosing what makes you happy and what your parents want for you is sometimes rather hard as well.

I have come to realize that my parents are rather two different people. My mother is the one that just says "okay" so long as we do whatever we want and we can do it. She does not dwell too much on things - she just lets us choose ourselves. On the other hand, my father (as wonderful and thoughtful he is) can sometimes be overbearing. He thinks from all aspects of everything and sometimes, he pushes us to do what he thinks is best for us.

My problem lies within this circle. Now that it is already 2012, results are bound to come out next month (I am sure of that) and due to that, for the past few months, I have been thinking about things. I admit I can be rather indecisive at times but I somehow have managed to convince myself that I would want to do culinary for university. Mother was rather okay with it but trying to convey what I wanted to my father was the hardest. He seemed rather disinterested and judging from his attitude and body language he would rather take a gun to his head than listen to what I have to say. That got me into thinking - I cannot do something without the blessings from both of my parents. As much as I would love to do culinary, I am going to go back to square one - psychology and crime as my first choice. There is a difference between wanting and needing. I want to do culinary but I need to do psychology as well.

Growing up is scary and all of responsibilities sometimes weighs you down. From today onwards, all the choices that I am making or will make will need to be thought upon thoroughly and carefully. Hopefully, everything will pull through for me. Thinking about the future is really scary - all of those what ifs! but hopefully with His guidance, everything will soon fall into its place.

Will be cherished for as long as I could.

I would like to wish everyone a splendid "Happy New Year!" and I miss each and everyone of you in-considerably. Upon joining PTEK in the year 2010, I had set my mind that I would want to be in the Choir Club and I definitely did not regret joining the club. My seniors were wonderful mentors and they were such a wonderful bunch of joy. I would like to think that our club was a bundle of joy - each and everyone of us are a bundle of joy in our lives - I would like to think of us as a rather big family. We had definitely gone through a lot of ups and downs together and those times were rather bittersweet for me. It had been an enjoyable year with the lot of you. I never regret the decisions that I have made and the actions that I have done though it could have been done properly and not hastily.

To my wonderful choir mates, thank you for always following what I have relentlessly ordered the lot of you to do and I apologize for any misdoings and I truly hope that you will forgive me for whatever mistakes I have done to you and upon you. In each of you, I have found a friend and I am glad the lot of us share the same passion in singing. I may not have been the best President you have ever seen but I am glad to have you lot as my colleagues (for the lack of a better word).

To my juniors now seniors, congratulations on getting promoted. I would love for you lot to still keep that passion you have for singing within the group. I know it is not always easy to work with people you are not quite close to, but every thing will be worth it in the end. Whenever you need help, the lot of us will not hesitate to help so please, whenever you have any problems, do tell us. There's this phrase that goes like "two heads are better than one". Picking a president, I will leave that up to you lot to choose the person that you think is capable in leading you and the future PTEK Choir members. Do not let the lack of people joining disdain you from being the best club there is in PTEK (I love to think that we are the best club in PTEK, simply because with so many different ranges of voices, we harmonize and become one!)

I have gained a lot of experiences with all of you and I wish all of you the best in doing everything that you are trying to achieve. I will miss all of your cheekiness and our close bonds! I know I am leaving the club in good hands.

Choir; a group of singers that perform together ♥

PS: It sucks that we don't have a picture together - juniors and seniors!

Walking down memory lane with Charmed.

This is how I have been spending the last few days of 2011 - downloading movies and series. Currently, as you can see, I am downloading Charmed! I miss that show - it used to be what I was watching when I was just a wee bit smaller than I am now. I guess, this started all my love for somewhat supernatural things and my vast imagination, for the lack of a better phrase. Since I could not wait for the whole thing to actually finish downloading, I have been looking at old videos and snippets from YouTube and I definitely cannot wait until season one finishes downloading so I can download the rest of the seasons!

There and back.

I thought with 2011 nearing to an end, these last few days would be spent rather lazily. Instead, my thoughts went astray. The parents decided to turn the whole house upside down and the house literally looks like a junk yard now. My little brother is moving out of his room to the guest room downstairs and my two little sisters are moving out of my room to my little brother's old room. Today is day two of rearranging everything and let me tell you, all of these labour work is making me tired.

We finished cleaning the guest room yesterday and finished painting it this morning. Straight after that room was finished, my mother decided the lot of us should work on Amir (my little brother)'s old room. That room was horrible! I swear he hoards more than I do! His room had a lot of books - whether it be old exercise books, comic books, just books and what not - and a lot of dusts! Mother kept on saying "for all the years he has been in the room, not once has he swept it". The dusts were every where and there were tonnes of rubbish! For a guy who supposedly has OCD, his room is not that clean. I helped with everything but painting. The smell of the paints were getting to me and I could not stop coughing so most of the time, whenever painting was involved, I would only help for the first five to ten minutes before running away to the safe haven that is my room.

Basically, we finished everything around 4.30PM and I spent the rest of my afternoon, sleeping. That was until I had to pick up my brother who was at the mall. I really hate going to the mall. That place is always swamped and congested with a lot of cars and people. What's worst is that not all drivers are considerate. I mean, I am a rather inexperienced driver, what with the fact that I had only gotten my driver's license during the end of September, but even I know how to drive considerately. I mean there are times where I would speed up and break the speed limit but who in this country actually drives by the speed limit? Nonetheless, I would not question people's choice to drive over the speed limit. What I want to mull over is the fact that drivers are inconsiderate - both men and women. I have encountered a lot of drivers that do not use their signals properly whenever they want to cut in a lane or something. It always gets me worried. For myself and for the rest of the future generations. I wish people would be more considerate. I hope there will be less accidents in 2012.

I have decided to try this wonderful Vanilla Cupcakes with Buttercream frosting (from browneyedbaker - I absolutely love the recipes that she has on her website!) but instead of using Buttercream frosting, I decided to try and make cream cheese frosting instead. This very Sunday, although it is a New Year for most people, it is also my little sister's birthday and I decided to give her cupcakes! Not only that, we are going to have our 'annual' BBQ party but instead of having it at Kampong, starting next year, we will be having it at Jerudong.

Starting next week, I will finally be able to help the SMARTER crew preparing for their second Oddy's Quest! I had been busy and was unable to be a part of such group during August because I was preparing for exams. From a lot of my friends' stories, being a part of the group was a wonderful experience and one that you would not regret. Hence, I cannot wait to be a part of such wonderful group in helping autistic children. I have always wondered and wanted to work alongside with these gifted people. So I am hoping everything will be wonderful and will run smoothly.